you know what? no. im not going to talk about jason. he doesnt deserve my time or sadness. he hurt me, he cheated on me and now hes an asshole. end of story. i will not be speaking of him any more. i got some good advice today from jacob and he said when things need to move to your past you have to train your mouth not to speak of the memories and then your brain will learn to get past it, if that made any sense. I actually feel like thats so true because i can talk about jason and other people can mention him cheating and it ends up making me super down and stuff. not like sad but just down because of everything that happened. i honestly think me and jasons whole relationship was a fucking lie. being done with him i have found out so many things throughout our relationship and im just like, wow... fuck you. and i loved him with everything i had. i gave him multiple oppurtunities and chances and things he wouldnt of had without me or with someone else. I guess i was just too stupid to see he was playing me the whole time, i just dont even know why he stayed with me so long and told me he loved me if he acted behind my back the way he did.
So yes im done talking about jason. I have talked to jacob for a while about me and jason and he even helped me when i was dating that fucker.
But now im doing good with jacob and i love life actually. like sometimes i get sad and down and everything but jacob always helps me through it and talks to me and that ladies, is what you look for in a guy.
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